i keep meaning to not reblobble these confessions things but i figure it’s a good start or sounding board for discussion that isn’t all black bar white text anonymous disembodied statement…! and i’ve always wanted to blah blah about this, so this is a good excuse. :D
actually, to be honest, i really was not into fenders in a big way for a long while. it was all hawke/anders and my blinders up and my focus completely on those two because they are really kind of perfect in every way, and i love them enormously, and as much as some hateships can be fun, i just did not see how fenris and anders could work together in any way.
then again, i told myself, i always like to keep my mind open to possibilities. some writers have been capable of convincing me of the most implausible scenarios, just because of how they pull it off. since i write a lot of AUs (or, you know, only AUs, hahaha sob) i started to think of the pairing as a challenge, like, what would have to change in order for this to work? how much, how little, and all the other how(e)s. also the who’s, the what’s, the why’s… it was a little puzzle that i wanted to piece together, since some people had managed to write it where it did work, and while it wasn’t necessarily my cup of tea, it seemed like it might be a nice mix-up after writing so much hawke/anders.
it was about when i realized fenris is the biggest cat of all time that i thought, oh, hey, this could work. just a little bit. you tweak this, you alter that, you change the circumstances but not the people… and it was fun, the totally different dynamic that i found while writing fenris and anders as opposed to writing hawke and anders. i loved both, just for two completely different reasons, and since i felt at the time i had exhausted a lot of my hawke/anders options the break and the change was a welcome one. it was fun when i never thought it would be.
then again, i’m one of those people who will probably try anything once, just to see how it works out. hawke/anders is still…my all-time bullet-proof everything everything, i love them together so much. and in the game as it stands, it’s hard for me to outright hate-ship fenris and anders because of how intransigent and implacable and damn difficult they are. but i’m all about the what-ifs, those little shifts in what’s there already that alter everything. and i also just like liking stuff, sometimes too much for my own good. i’m not picky. i like to be sold!
some coherent thoughts. it is possible to like both! i’m never sure why people feel the need to make it one or the other…. fenris’s mouth does such funny things, exhibit a.